Zahir....

Zahir in arabic means all consuming,a thing that occupies our every thought,until we can no longer think of anything else.i personally felt this was a trait of weakness,to allow something to overwhelm u in either thought or emotion was to me an equivalent of impotence.I AM GREATER THAN ANYTHING THAT CAN HAPPEN TO ME i wrote on my message board in all audacity.but once again life decided to prove me wrong.a seemingly innocous 'thing'brought me on my knees,made me do things i had derided with all zest,made me stoop to insanity and yet it seemed the most appropriate thing to do then.yes it consumes everything including logic
but there was an exotic joy in that state, a sense of purpose,a feeling of 'agape'in that mesmerisation.
when it finally chose to end itself despite my desperate clinging to it,all it left behind was emptiness,but for a revelation
an unequivocal,consummate passion(insanity)
v/s
an addled pedantic logic

a haunt

i had heard only the 
first two lines of this awesome song  on radio in a bus.
ever since then i wanted to
listen to  this song..
i dont know how its possible to pack 
so much meaning in so few a sentences.
poetry does enjoy such powers but this is sublime.!!!!
try listening to this song.the music only adds to the charm.
i have nothing much to say i am in
complete raptures.

tujhase naaraaz nahi zindagi, hairaan hoon main
o hairaan hoon main
tere masoom savalon se pareshaan hooN main
o pareshaan hoon main

jeene ke liye socha hi na tha, dard sambhalane honge
muskuraoon to, muskurane ke karz utaarne honge
muskuraoon kabhi to lagata hai
jaise hontonn pe karz rakhaa hai
tujhase ...

aaj agar bhar ayi hai, boondein baras jaayengi
kal kya pata inke liye aakhen taras jayengi
jaane kahan gum kahan khoya
ek aansu chhupake rakha tha
tujhase ...

zindagi tere gum ne hamain rishte naye samajhaye
mile jo hamain dhoop main mile chhaanv ke thande saaye

the virtue of frivolity

success and purpose have been preposterously exaggerated in our lives.u have to win,nay you have to win outstandingly.you must have a goal in life,aim nay a precise aim.i have often asked myself whether some aim is better than no aim at all whether we must succeed because we must live or we must live because we want to succeed!!.either path does not make sense to me.
life they say as such has no meaning its u who give it some.why bother then. why is it wrong to live life just the way it is- meaningless, devoid of purpose,where the only thing i want is to breath this second.nothing beyond.why is it wrong to be 'content 'with very little things in life.why go in search of knowledge,wisdom enlightment...your having read gorky,pushkin,emerson,blake means nothing apart from satisfying your ego of having done something that the world thinks is good. we are born with some instincts like hunger,trying to avoid pain,..(these might be difficult to get rid of so its better we stick with them).why complicate things by adding more to our list.why is it bad to live like animals,they do so less harm.
perhaps its not that easy.but its worth a collective try.