swalpa OVERflow

Lives indeed resemble rivers.
Many have been displaced and "displeased" because i decided to change course time and again.
I have had to meander because some refused to pave way.
I have merged, branched,no longer resembling what i was, but remaining in a way unchanged.
Lives indeed resemble rivers.
Some exotic ...some- boringly,commonplace.
some comfortably predictable ....some refreshing.
some elusive...some pacified.
some pristine..some turbid.
P.S -.I am no alien to being dam(n)ed either.

Indiscreet observations

in shantaram he says the the universe evolves towards increasing complexity..and in that case i am supree..mly evolved.the other day i was trying to pick a pastry from a confectionery and i brooded on my choices for 15 min straight.complexity comes naturally to me.i simply cant,inspite of all my efforts be simple.i bring so many trivial variables while even making a simple decision that i get lost juggling them."U think too much" my father keeps telling me..perhaps its simple only if u know what u want...for then the only thing remaining is to get it.but for somebody who is yet to be enlightened, everything is equally enticing and equally repelling.so i end up saying anything is ok for me..which actually is an euphemism for i cant decide which is best for me.that to me is a great weakness.i used to say i am not particular about the dresses i wear,i care least about them..blah blah..but then i realised that when i refuse to make a choice,i am giving up the control of my life however trivial that part of me is,which i found entirely acceptable..for in the end i should atleast have the satisfaction of having suffered due to my own choices.

It takes one to know one

it has happened to me before, a song i have heard umpteen times before,suddenly seems more meaningful,more soulful.a one liner i had never been able to understand suddenly comes alive.everything suddenly falls into place in a moment of epiphany.and i wonder then why i didn't understand it the first time i came across these , and i realise i wasn't ready then.i am more mature now.what is maturity but coming back to the same problem with greater preparedness...greater experience.each day something gets added to our repertoire of experiences.and then if u can recall... something surely becomes clearer.so what i do now is read, remember and wait till it strikes me with its meaning.all i can do is wait..but often its worth it.
i knew it was a nice line even when i first read it..but perhaps its only now that i understand what khaled hussaini meant when he said for u a thousand times over....

On the right to mock..

"it seems there is something called as "abhaava vairagya" in indian philosophy, which means a sense of(snobbish and superflous) detachment and renunciation towards something u cannot achieve/u have tried and failed to achieve. most of us at one time or the other fall prey to this.the other day we were talking about how pathetic a quiz was and how stupid the quizmaster was.indeed it was a mockery of all the quizzing we knew.no doubts,but the hard fact remains we got knocked out in the first round itself.
the only person according to me who has the right to sneer on it is the winner and no one else.the same logic perhaps applies to our universities and colleges.except the topper, all of us are plain "sour".just because grapes are a little too high might not necessarily mean they are sour.
its a quote only if EINSTEIN says "schooling doesn't teach u anything"if i and u say it ..well..never mind.